Checking In On My Mental Health During A Pandemic

It's amazing what simply writing this blog post has done for me.

June 22, 2020

Last November, I wrote a blog post detailing my mental health. 

Essentially, I was in a very dark place. Life had thrown curveball after curveball and I reached a boiling point where I needed help.

The next few weeks I recieved hundreds of messages, emails, and shout outs all telling me about their own struggles. 

I didn't feel alone.

Over the next few months I felt myself getting better and better.

I talked a lot about what was going on, spoke about my thoughts, and verbalized what I was feeling. 

Then, COVID surfaced and I felt a regression happen.

I began lacking motivation to do basic every day activities. I wasn't hungry. I didn't feel motivated to go to the gym (which, has helped me tremendously in the past.) I didn't want to work. I avoided any social contact (all via FaceTime or even texts.)

We're in such a weird place in time right now because of the nature of what is happening in our world. 

From what I can see, everyone is exhausted. Some are exhausted from fear of what might happen, some are exhausted from fighting for basic rights, etc. 

And you know what? You're allowed to take a breather. 

You're allowed to say, "I need some time." 

Some people will tell you that you can't let up and that you have to keep going.

However, only YOU know how you feel and if you need some time, take it! 

I'm doing that right now myself. I'm taking some time to relfect, unwind, and regroup. 

Sometimes, taking a break is what you need to have a breakthrough.

So if you're in the same position as me, and you feel that now matter what you do, everything feels heavy, then take a step back and tell the ref you need a time out.

If they don't understand, then they're not on your team.

You owe it to youself. I know I do.

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